faerywings
01-02-2007, 04:56 AM
Good moooo-rning!
Is everyone fully recovered after the holidays? I hope so. Tired a bit here, But no too bad otherwise. I am going food shopping in the morning (alone! No kids!) and then I hope to work on some of the pictures I have to scrap.
I was bummed out this morning however. I got on the scale and I gained 4 pounds this past month.nUgh. I know 4 lbs probably doesn't seem like a lot butto me, it is huge. I shared in the Did you Know thread that I have an eating disorder. I have some huge (ha, no pun intended...well, maybe...) body image issues and anorexia. The behaviors (withholding food) come and go, but the thoughts and obsessions over food and weight just sticks around no matter what.
So here I am in a quandry. I know I shouldn't diet. I know I should be ok with my weight. But I am being bombarded with all of these diet ads, weight loss programs etc. I want to lose these 4 pounds. Many anorexics have a "magic number" that when they get near it makes them a bit wacky LOL And to add in to my issues, I can't remember one year that I didn't start off on a diet of some sort. I guess I feel kind of lost.
But on a good note, this was the first time I weighed myself since right before Xmas. That in itself is crazy to me, since I usually weigh myself every day, and when the anorexia is bad, I have weighed myself up to 15 times a day.
Ok then... I wrote a lot more about that then I was expecting to. I guess it is bugging me more thanI let on. Hope no one minds that I really rambled here.
Is everyone fully recovered after the holidays? I hope so. Tired a bit here, But no too bad otherwise. I am going food shopping in the morning (alone! No kids!) and then I hope to work on some of the pictures I have to scrap.
I was bummed out this morning however. I got on the scale and I gained 4 pounds this past month.nUgh. I know 4 lbs probably doesn't seem like a lot butto me, it is huge. I shared in the Did you Know thread that I have an eating disorder. I have some huge (ha, no pun intended...well, maybe...) body image issues and anorexia. The behaviors (withholding food) come and go, but the thoughts and obsessions over food and weight just sticks around no matter what.
So here I am in a quandry. I know I shouldn't diet. I know I should be ok with my weight. But I am being bombarded with all of these diet ads, weight loss programs etc. I want to lose these 4 pounds. Many anorexics have a "magic number" that when they get near it makes them a bit wacky LOL And to add in to my issues, I can't remember one year that I didn't start off on a diet of some sort. I guess I feel kind of lost.
But on a good note, this was the first time I weighed myself since right before Xmas. That in itself is crazy to me, since I usually weigh myself every day, and when the anorexia is bad, I have weighed myself up to 15 times a day.
Ok then... I wrote a lot more about that then I was expecting to. I guess it is bugging me more thanI let on. Hope no one minds that I really rambled here.
Connie
01-02-2007, 06:55 AM
Good morning all,
Hugs Chris! I hope your day gets better.
Today I'm off to work. joy - I'm trying to find a new attitude. But the new year will bring a lot of new things!
Last night Heidi came back from supper & her comment was 'laughing hard' - ummm yeah - I think yesterday I was half the traffic thru Oscraps linking people to resources for ACDSee. I had predicted that people would have the organizing bug.
So have a good day ladies.
Hugs Chris! I hope your day gets better.
Today I'm off to work. joy - I'm trying to find a new attitude. But the new year will bring a lot of new things!
Last night Heidi came back from supper & her comment was 'laughing hard' - ummm yeah - I think yesterday I was half the traffic thru Oscraps linking people to resources for ACDSee. I had predicted that people would have the organizing bug.
So have a good day ladies.
danielle young
01-02-2007, 07:51 AM
morning everyone. i'm back at work today, but i'm not too disappointed about it. ;) i got my coffee, and i just downloaded a bunch of stuff by lauren reid and that's making me feel much better!!
{{hugs}} to you, faerywings!
connie - i have a chronic case of that organizing bug! slightly OCD... :)
anyway, i hope you all have a fantastic and fresh start today!
{{hugs}} to you, faerywings!
connie - i have a chronic case of that organizing bug! slightly OCD... :)
anyway, i hope you all have a fantastic and fresh start today!
ErinBoBerin
01-02-2007, 10:00 AM
Hugs to you Chris. I was actaully thinking the same thing this morning. I put on my jeans and they are definently a little tight, I blame it on my daughter weaning! They aren't a size anyone healthy actually wears, but they fit great this summer.
I have my magic number; it's not in the healthy weight range for my height, so I try to stay away from it, and I've tried to talk myself into accepting a new number, but that just doesn't work as it seems like settling to my other half. I'm an excersize bulimic by the way (I don't puke, I just overexcersize)
There's part of me that wants to start excersizing again and there's part of me that knows being underweight is just as bad for you as being obese, and it's definently hard to find a balance isn't it. I know that excersizing in moderation is part of being a healthy person, but I can't seem to stick with 20 minutes a day. I guess everyone has their weight problems, but I'm really feeling left out not being able to make "the" resolution, especially when I'm not exactly happy with where I'm at.
I have my magic number; it's not in the healthy weight range for my height, so I try to stay away from it, and I've tried to talk myself into accepting a new number, but that just doesn't work as it seems like settling to my other half. I'm an excersize bulimic by the way (I don't puke, I just overexcersize)
There's part of me that wants to start excersizing again and there's part of me that knows being underweight is just as bad for you as being obese, and it's definently hard to find a balance isn't it. I know that excersizing in moderation is part of being a healthy person, but I can't seem to stick with 20 minutes a day. I guess everyone has their weight problems, but I'm really feeling left out not being able to make "the" resolution, especially when I'm not exactly happy with where I'm at.
nennikers
01-02-2007, 10:07 AM
Wow, Chris, you are having quite a struggle! I can totally understand where you are coming from, so just know that you are going to be in my thoughts, OK? I wish you the very best. I also wish there was a sure-fire cure for anorexia, but acknowledging your issues is a very huge thing to do and that will keep you responsible to yourself.
OK, now, this time of year just cracks me up 'cause everyone now has to organize all the stuff we recently accumulated. I kinda like the fresh start aspect of it all, though. We spent the weekend amassing piles of toys in the basement to donate to Goodwill. Yeah, we're party ANIMALS in my house!
Hey, did anyone watch Dick Clark's New Year's Eve special? My hubbo and I got tears in our eyes! We grew up on Dick Clark, so it's hard to see him looking so fragile after his stroke. And it's hard to think our kids will have to grow up on Ryan Seacrest. Ick.
It snowed this weekend, the first real one of the season, and the kids were flipping out! Elizabeth and Sam built a snowman in the backyard, but the poor thing melted in a mere half hour. It was so sunny yesterday afternoon that I was outside helping her...without a coat! Weird.
Ben is trying to take his first steps at 10 months. I am sooooo excited, but also soooooo in for it!
Grandma is coming over this afternoon so hubbo and I can go shopping for end tables. Yes, we've been married for 9 years, and we have no end tables. And we have two lamps. We put our drinks on the floor, and frankly, I've gone through enough Spot Shot to afford me some pretty darn nice end tables! Decorating decisions paralyze me, but lately I've been on a roll. I'm feeling pretty confident now, so just watch me mess it all up!
Have a great day, all!
OK, now, this time of year just cracks me up 'cause everyone now has to organize all the stuff we recently accumulated. I kinda like the fresh start aspect of it all, though. We spent the weekend amassing piles of toys in the basement to donate to Goodwill. Yeah, we're party ANIMALS in my house!
Hey, did anyone watch Dick Clark's New Year's Eve special? My hubbo and I got tears in our eyes! We grew up on Dick Clark, so it's hard to see him looking so fragile after his stroke. And it's hard to think our kids will have to grow up on Ryan Seacrest. Ick.
It snowed this weekend, the first real one of the season, and the kids were flipping out! Elizabeth and Sam built a snowman in the backyard, but the poor thing melted in a mere half hour. It was so sunny yesterday afternoon that I was outside helping her...without a coat! Weird.
Ben is trying to take his first steps at 10 months. I am sooooo excited, but also soooooo in for it!
Grandma is coming over this afternoon so hubbo and I can go shopping for end tables. Yes, we've been married for 9 years, and we have no end tables. And we have two lamps. We put our drinks on the floor, and frankly, I've gone through enough Spot Shot to afford me some pretty darn nice end tables! Decorating decisions paralyze me, but lately I've been on a roll. I'm feeling pretty confident now, so just watch me mess it all up!
Have a great day, all!
VickiStegall
01-02-2007, 11:03 AM
goood moooorning y'all!
I'm starting this year totally behind, so just let me say hugs to all!
I'm starting this year totally behind, so just let me say hugs to all!
Maisie
01-02-2007, 08:50 PM
I'll say HI to all, and then, Goodnight!
Sleep well!
Sleep well!
faerywings
01-03-2007, 04:54 AM
Erin, that is totally it. Exactly.
I went to a Curves gym last year when I was out of treatment. I had to talk to them about how I cannot be in a class withothers nor be in any situation where there is any sort of competition since it just drives me to work even harder. As it was, I ended up no joining. Partly b/c of $$, partly b/c I didn't trust myself to keep it under control.
RE: Dick Clark.... I was so torn up about how I felt. On the one hand I was so proud of him, he has obviously come so far and must have worked so long to be able to be there on NYE. At the same time, it was hard to see him like that. Very sad. It shows so much strength, but so much frailty and I think that many Americans (society in general) see that is weakness and inferiority.
And I am with you. Ryan Seacrest- ink
I went to a Curves gym last year when I was out of treatment. I had to talk to them about how I cannot be in a class withothers nor be in any situation where there is any sort of competition since it just drives me to work even harder. As it was, I ended up no joining. Partly b/c of $$, partly b/c I didn't trust myself to keep it under control.
RE: Dick Clark.... I was so torn up about how I felt. On the one hand I was so proud of him, he has obviously come so far and must have worked so long to be able to be there on NYE. At the same time, it was hard to see him like that. Very sad. It shows so much strength, but so much frailty and I think that many Americans (society in general) see that is weakness and inferiority.
And I am with you. Ryan Seacrest- ink
Sweeet
01-03-2007, 11:13 AM
Sorr I'm behind in posting and I was home all day yesterday to come chit chat with y'all! I was scrapping, which was good! heehee............well I have no choice to start behind since I am pregnant and cannot go on a diet LOL! .....but even before I found out I was expecting, I was and still am strength training, speed walking (maybe turtle-ish now), bicycling and now the past month started swimming laps at our local indoor pool run by the city gov't. NICE!
I do plan on getting back on full course after this babe is here amongst us, of course, dependent on the birth (kwim? ..could be a c-section..we just never know).
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Jenna
I do plan on getting back on full course after this babe is here amongst us, of course, dependent on the birth (kwim? ..could be a c-section..we just never know).
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Jenna
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